prom, not so memorable?

seems like that would be the case.

i can’t get my head wrapped around the idea of the six, yes now six, girls going to prom in a limousine, let alone dateless. i never realized how much dependent i was around others, and now that i’ve lost many of my friends, i’ll probably face embarrassment on the one day that i should be enjoying. doesn’t anyone agree that it’s an obvious waste of money and a pathetic attempt to look like we’ll be enjoying ourselves the entire night? i personally don’t want a guilty conscience for using my mom’s money for a twenty-minute drive to a prom, that i’m dreading.

and our numbers have changed. five to six. you would think that i would be happy. but oh no. is there any other way to make me look desperate by adding a rude, heartless Texan to our group. i don’t wanna play “let’s be friends” at prom. it’s useless, because i really won’t associate with her ever again. so why the fuck put effort into making a person feel a part of our group?

i’m terrible. i sound terrible. but i can’t not be concerned over something that’s supposed to be remembered. i wish i weren’t so stubborn. i wish my friends weren’t so stubborn. i just wish i weren’t going.

the prom thing happened too fast. one day, she shows up at lunch talking about how she found another person for our group and she’s gonna buy a double bid. ha. surprise, surprise. i have little time to think this over. yes, of course, i have known of prom but i never really seriously considered it.

a dress, alone, is worst part of prom. i don’t want to feel insecure while shopping for a dress. and i want to be cheap while i still have my chances to go to korea. oh yeah, what’s so hell-a-rious is that friends wanted to tag along with another friend to go dress shopping. sorry, but it seems inconsiderate if you use your friend for discounts. and who the hell wants a person to be shopping at the same place for a dress? i’m pretty sure she wants to do to shopping separately.

this will go bad. and i will stay stubborn and be little help. prom? a possible no. limo? no. dress? not yet? maybe?