parents deserve better
May 8, 2008 by shrota
At some point we all realize whats important and what’s not. My fuck-tard of a brother [20 yrs.] still hasn’t gotten to that stage. still living with his parents, still cursing me out on the phone after he blew out our transmission, still being the inconsiderate bitch he has always been. i wouldn’t mind if he didn’t associate himself with me. i love him, he’s the funniest person in our family but only at times when he doesn’t expect anything in return. but i can’t understand his logic. he can go as far as calling me a cunt, and believe me i’m sure thats the worst name to be called. he can curse at his parents and an hour later expect them to pay for his insurance bills.
what saddens me the most is that he doesn’t understand the value of family. my mom is crying and he’s on a drunk-drive. even after what he’s done to us, he’ll still expect my mom to pay for his europe trip. and my parents don’t have the heart to refuse him in the end. i hope he knows he’s the favorite. the oldest and the most cherished. that explains why my parents take account of every deed he’s done in his life. i have to be the second favorite or at least at tie with my twin, because i spend the most time with both of my parents.
regardless of who’s the favorite, i hope my parents learn to forget him. as terrible as that may sound, it’s for the best. he’ll come back when he’s desperate, right? he’ll learn the significance of a family being a part of your life, not just financially.
i love my parents. and i wish they outlast the longevity of a lifetime.
i can’t help but imagine myself at each of their funerals. its sad how i already regret everything i have done to them and even now i can’t treat them the way they deserve. my poor dad is away from his family. he talks to my mom daily. but not once has any of my brothers once considered calling him to ask how he was doing. of course i’m in the same spectrum but i did speak to him last week after i texted him a picture of myself. as for my mom, she does anything possibly to entertain our needs.
all i can hope for is that i can support them for the rest of their lives.
